mrfonix

01:30 am - Update.. since its been a year

well its been some time.... alot has happend... Some good.. and some bad.. i really dont know what to say... Not to grate at this writing thing.. Where to start.. I quit smoking.. Havent had one in over a week Wooh go me! Along with quitting smoking i quit drinking soda to.. i feel pretty good over all.. Well Im single.. i guess thats a good thing.. there is a girl i have in mind.. i just hope everything works out.. if it does i think i will be the happist i could get.. She is everything i want in girl. I just wish she wouldnt talk bad about herself as much as she does. She is really beautiful, and has the most amazing personailty i have come across. And to top it off she is a fucking gamer. How can it get any fucking better? What eles.. Well Long story shot my dad has had some problems but he's all good now. Uhh im no longer working witch sucks ass.. Fucking Whole food's closed down the store i worked at.. It was either go to orlando and take a job their or just take severnce pay so i took the pay. What's really gonna suck is finding a new job and getting paid that much. Other then that i havent really been up too much.. just kinda hanging around my house, Hanging out with friends, playing wow, And Gh3. Hmm What eles.. I guess im pretty lame since its been a year and dont really have much to say..OHH SHIT!! My bestfriend got a job and is taking online corse's im really proud of him. He Is starting to make something of himself and i envy him alot. I feel that im not going to be as successful as him or anyone for that matter.. Bottom line i just want to make my dad proud.. but i feel that im failing at that.. I guess i just need to get my shit together and get my GED and try my damn hardest to get in the the police academy. Hmm what eles... Everyone but my dad are still drunking assholes.. i think they might have got a little wrose, but oh well i guess what can you do? I suppose im done now

Current Mood: okay

02:45 am - Well

yesterday was my brithday.. it started on tues.. i hung out with some friends.. saw grindhouse.. OMFG!! MOVIE=BADASS!!! Everyone go and see it seriously ... on my Birthday i went to school hung out with some more friends went to work witch it wasnt that bad i closed with my manager.. witch was badass... Hes fucking cool and after.. came home got 2 birthday presents.. And ipod wtich made me really happy and lost planet and my and also my computer but yeah had this for a while but I love it alot.. i think im going to get into writeing again its a good way to get shit out i guess .im still single witch is good im not in any rush to get with someone.. because it never works last 2 girlfriends i had i was rushed into one.. im done with it.. i want to find a girl and be friends and then take it to the next step thats how it should be done.. im done writein for now.. Later

Current Mood: excited

05:13 pm - I dont fucking Know....

Umm havent updated so i am So STFU!! anyway alot has been goin on... I got a job... Ummm Gots my own wow account so i've been playing the shit out of that lvl24!!!!! Fuck Yeah! umm thinking about getting off of here to play that i need to catch up.. and shit... i've been hangin out with my friends alot more Witch i fucking love.. ummm I might get to see yoshi Soon witch always makes me happy i havent seen her in long ass fucking time...Hmmmm school is going good ummmm I really dont think there is anything eles.... So Later..... NiggahS!!!

Current Mood: pleased

01:28 pm - i dont know

Well its been a long ass time... Just havent had time to update... i guess i lost the feeling to write about whats going and shit... Well... I moved again but most of you already know that hmmm... i've been sick recently but oh well what the fuck can you do? Nothing... Well Zach is leaveing soon.. he is leaveing on thursday but witch sucks... but i'm glad he is to because.. he has nothing down he besides fam but its good the he is trying to get his shit together... hmmm i need to start hanging out with my friends more.. like yoshi oreo Oz Adam all my friends... well i dont really know what eles to say.. i'm in adult Ed woooh everyone knows that to... Well


Later

Current Mood: mellow

06:49 am

well i decided to update my journal since its been a while its not going to be a long update because i'm tired and sore. well the reason why i'm tired and sore is because i went to IN beach... yes i'm in IN i'm with tiff visting her aunt and stuff its pretty cool here alot of farms and stuff most of the towns are small witch is cool to . anyway its nice to get away from FL . well ummm its 6/6/6 today but whatever its just going to be another day to me ... but i'm going to go now so i can have a cig and probiley go back to bed .....

Later

Current Mood: exhausted

11:03 pm - Its that time again

Well.. havent updated for a while.... And thats because my moms a cunt and my moms boyfriend Jinkens is a Nigger.. but eh what can i do about that?? i guess nothing really but shit happends right? well me and my mom have been getting into little fights lately she basicly told me that me and my brother was a misstake and marrying my dad was to.. She would much rather be somewhere eles with tony witch is fucked up... like hes more important well if my mom every reads this FUCK you bitch thats really fucked up! All you fucking care about is beer and her boyfriend Nothing else But fuck her i could careless about her.. cant wait intill i can get the fuck out of this fucking house this fucking hell. I know other people have it worse then me but still but anyway me and tiffanys 8 months tomorrow i wish we could do something but my mom and her boyfriend are fucking CUNts so i dont see anything really speacial happening but you know oh well ... I miss two of my good friends Yoshi and oreo i know i seen oreo lately but its not like it was befor i use to see him every weekend now its like once a month and my friend Yoshi i miss her alot she was a pig part of my life and i miss her alot she was a really good friend a friend i could sit back with and talk about anything while drinking Tampico Lol. I mean me and oreo do the same thing me and him can talk about anything for hours and hours and game and stuff hes a really big part of my life to hes like a brother... i guess i am sorta depressed it feels like i have lost alot of friends Cale Yoshi Mike But me and Yoshi are talking right now and it feels good to talk to her.. hmm i have alot on my sholders right now.. Its a big whight and i dont know just confused.. hmm well school sucks balls but thats normal but it sucks more now because i have lost all my friends that ment something to me eh i FAD oh well i dont give a shit just take night school or adult ed... but back to the frineds at EG all i have there is one friend and one chick who i guess conciders me a friend Who is annoying as fuck all she dose is talk about her boyfriend and shit it gets annoying oh yeah i got kristen hmmm things should get better i hope.. well spring break is only two dats away everyone is excited but be i guess because i'm just going to be stuck in my room the whole time probiley but hell maybe i will hang out with oreo and yoshi who knows i hope i do becuase that would be fucking awesome it feels good to get some of this shit of my chest. i also wouldnt mind hanging out with Louie and Jessy but you know i'm asking for to much i now or am i is it to much to ask for to hang out with friends the things that mean the most to me.. people who actully care about me and will sti done and talk to me and vise versa? i guess it is.. Not that this person reads my journal or anything well two pople i wouldnt mind hanging out with Lauren and zach and tiffany that would be fun like the 4 us do something but you know what is the liky hood of that happening? I dont really see Lauren and Zach that much anymore and it sucks i miss hanging out with them but you know shit happens i guess? alot of shit happens everything just comes crubleing down like i dont know its hard to explain.. sometimes i wonder if things will get better tiffany tells me things will ... but its hard to keep hope because... my mom is a drunk i think it makes her happy not seeing me happy like she likes to feed off it like yay the little shit that i wish i never had isnt happy Fuck her all she brings is drama i'm glad my dad dosent have a life like that i'm trying to keep a drama free life but it always comes my way my house is always full of fucking drama Why can everyone just be fucking happy and just fucking for get about the fucking drama insted of makeing it and takeing it out on me and kev like we are the bad guys and shit.. well i think i am done bitching for now i've got alot off my chest i just hope people will read it it and get where i am comeing from and stuff and leave comments to maybe make me feel better.. Bah i am just asking for symphaty soo if you want leave a comment and stuff Just have a feeling this might have been a waste of time but i dont know.. anyway i'm gone like your moms tight POONTANG!!!


Fonix

Current Mood: frustrated

04:52 pm - FUCK THE CUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well for thoughs who dont know i am not going to palmbay high anymore so thats why i havent been there... and...Yeah so i am gounded and i have a fucking curfew Witch if fucking bullshit!!! fuck my fucking mom i hope she fucking DIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!FUCK HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKING NIGGER LOVEING CUNT ASS MOUTHER FUCKING BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Grah... my fucking cerfew on Weekdays is 10... and my fucking cerfew on weekends is 11 FUCKING BULLSHIT she really wants me to go crazy.... She just keeps on fucking bitching at me and makes my life a living hell ... .fucking cunt....I dont even think she loves me... i think she is just there to make my life a living hell .... like she doesnt care if i drop out .... thats fucked up she wanted me to drop out and shit.... real supportive.... cant wait intill i am 18 then i can get the fuck out of this fucking hell hole of a fucking house....And then i can really finailly tell that fucking cunt how i feel about her.... But yeah i am just in a bad mood i may update again later... but i am too pissed off to even think of anything........ yeah bye... FUCK YOU CUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EAT NIGGER SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: pissed off

01:29 am - Umm Wtf.... 1:30 and still up on a school night...

Well i have had a long weekend.. umm Hung out with people.. oreo,steph,Mike,yoshi,neil,oz umm i cant really think of anyone eles.. umm Well.. Some person wants me to update so i guess i am...ummm Soo.. I dont really know what to update about... umm talking on the phone.... Umm Oreo mike and oz are playing magic the gathering... and yeah... wow... I cant think of anything.... But uhhh Went to louies party... that was fun.. me and tiffany Are friends Now... and for the people who didnt know Then dont worry about it... ummmm.. wow......Wtf....... i dont know what to say thats like first ... ummm Shit... Nigger.. I am going to eat your babies and sell them on Ebay Yeah How do you like that one..??? ¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿¿<---- upside down question marks... ummm Shit.... You Fuck shit heh heh heh...Anway.... hmmmm wtf.. .I cant think of shit... Grah i think i am almost done i mean what do i have to say Umm no one really reads this Or cares.. what i have to say... so i am just going to keep to myself Like i always do... so yeah... Ummm But for the people who really care Would Leave a nice little comment and tell me they Cared and wanted to hear what i say... *i kid i kid* ummm i think i will just Keep on bottleing everything up it seems thats all i am ever good at..

Current Mood: blank

03:19 am - Song... My friends over you

I’m drunk off your kiss
For another night in a row
This is becoming too routine for me
But I did not mean to lead you on
And it’s all right to pretend
That we still talk
It’s just for show, isn’t it
It’s my fault that it fell apart

Just maybe
You need this
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
(My friends over you)

Please tell me everything,
That you think that I should know
About all the plans you made
When I was nowhere to be found
And it’s all right to forget
That we still talk
Its just for fun, isn’t it
It’s my fault that it fell apart

Cuz maybe you need this
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
(My friends over you)

Just maybe you need this
You need this…
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you

Current Mood: annoyed

05:17 pm - me and my thoughts

hmmm what DAH helll i dont know i guess i will make an update but i quick one because i dont know.... there has been alot going on latey and i dont feel like typeing everything ummm last week was oreos birthday that was fun i got shitfaced dont rember shit ummmm then after his birthday i want to homecomming that was fun danced a bit alot of pictures were taken like two many hmmm then ... after homecomming witch ended at 12:30 we went to stake and shake hmmm it was fun umm after that went back to myplace and oreo and mike were here hung out with them for about an hour or so and then went to sleep with tiffany.... god i love her so much i just want to be with her for a long time we were ment for eachother... hmm i dont know what eles to say it feels like yoshi is mad at me or something but i dont know maybe she can tell me if she reads my journal or something hmmm what eles... i am bored... i am talking to dj i havent talked to that fucker in a while he was in jail and got out and now he is just on probation ..... he has a kid on the way sometime in april so thats cool..... hmmm i think i am going to be goin over oreos house tomorrow after school... but after school maybe play some Initial D that would be pretty cool hmmm what eles.. I need some cigs damn it ... because i ran at yesterday and that sucked and i didnt have my moring smoke today because me or kev didnt have any.... so i was getting really annoyed at school today Grah fucking niggers and spics fucking stoping right the fuck in front of people god people at fucking palmbay high piss me off oh well thats life ... i am going to stop my bitching now.... well um goodbye....



KEEP IT CRUNK NIGGA!!!!!!

01:20 am - Eh not really an update.. but it will do..

Current Mood: irritated

06:53 pm - Hmm long time no write...

well i have had a lot of fun the past 5 weekends umm i got drunk in all five of them weekends I dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing... i got high a couple of the times in the 5 weekends i have just been busy i dont know what to talk about.. i have hung out with tiffany Alot we been together all the 5weeks we have been going out for 7 weeks now almost 8 Its been the best i love her so much i cant describe how i feel about her. she asks me why i stair at her i do because when i look at her she looks so beautiful its hard not to stair at her she looks like an angel when i look at her nothing matters and i love that i just love her so much i dont know i am just really happy i am with her I think i am the luckest guy out there =) >) lol heh anyway well the 5 weekends in a row i was over melissas i can remeber last weekend ok friday after school droped danielle off then me and melissa went to tiffanys house over there for a bit then went to see that emily rose movie it was an ok movie C thats what i'll give it hmm after that went to deneys Thats always fun thats our hang out spot now lol ^_^ it was Me tiffany melissa lauren and shit wants her name i cant remeber but lauren bought me dinner i had 3 pancakes eggs hashbrowns and 2 sauceage links it was good after that went back to melissas house and crashed me and tiffany got up smoked a cig then went back in to say good bye to melissa because we were going to go job hunting but never got to it but we went shoping for tiff's mom and we picked up caitie that was fun we went shopping in the SUV bwahahaha that was fun Got back to tiff's house The orange juice droped so i had to bring that in that was fun heh had to pour it into a pitcher than after that tiff proof read her dads essay and me and caitie read tiff's mom's essay after that we went into the back room and caitie and tiff played DDR i sat there and watched sorta rested my eyes then tiff fell asleep on me and it was dinner time she looked like an angel when she was sleeping i didnt want to wake her up so i could eat but caitie woak her up and me caitie Zach and Lauren ate then we smoked a cig and i forget who woak tiff up but she got up and we went to the pool hall that was fun and i played a game with zach he beat me oh welll kaylaih came and then shortly after that neil and olw Came and after they came Zach and neil played a game and then we left we where outside talking for a bit then left Kayliah had weed so she offerd zach he wented to get high he said ok and so did me tiff caitie then i crashed at tiffs intill 6:30 because he parents were going to wake up shortly we all went to the beach and stayed there intill 9:15 then went to go drop caitie off then i went to stephs house that was fun i was there for a like an hour then lauren zach and tiff came and picked me up because i was going to TAMPA BITCHES!!! anyway that was fun i got drunk that was fun getting drunk and playing poker FUN! thats the end of the weekend one thats all i can really remeber but anyway i think i typed enough i am done BEause i want to talk to my baby Tiffany!!!

KEEP IT CRUNK NIGGA!!!



Fonix

Current Mood: good

05:47 pm - Whoa....

Current Mood: bored

01:24 pm - home...

well i am home now Woopty fucking doooo.... eh hmmm I had alot of fun when i stayed at hung out at oreos for like a week hung out with alot of different people oreo, tiffany,mike,andrew,MelissaH!*heh heh heh* who eles..... becky,and downs heh heh heh.. anyway ummm half awake cant remeber what i did over the week..... i remeber the night i stayed over tiffanys house that night was a lot of fun. but i will start at some point in time... ok i was hanging out with oreo and we stayed up intill like 6 and i had to be up in 4 hours to go to palmbay high. and then um went back to his house after that hung out with mike and oreo and megan We left for like and we went to go pick up my hot sexy lover melissah and we went back to megans and we where just in the park chilling.... But than we go to mecdonals*spelling half awake* melissa bought me and her a drink. and then she bought everyone something to eat that was fucking cool i love her!!!! After that we went BAck to megans house we where there for a bit and then we went back to oreos house and MY LOVER Was there!!! Tiffany!! yay!!!! well tiffanys sister in law laran called... and she wanted us to come up to rack ally for a bit so we did we talked to her for a bit then tiffanys brother zach came out and we talked to him for a bit and then we left because tiffany wanted a drink i think and melissa was hungry i was just happy to be with tiffany and melissa And guess where we went to get food and drink Macdonals heh heh went there twice in two days oh yeah! after that we went back to oreos house i took a shower and what not and Then We Left again!!! heh me tiffany and melissa went to her house well tiffany droped me and melissa off at her house. me and melissa hung out witch was fun talked and and listened to music... i was there for about in hour maybe a bit more then oreo and mike came over. and we gots in the car and drove to tiffanys house But we couldnt Park by her house so we went back to melissas house we where there for a bit then tiffany walked to melissas house we where there for a bit we went to go see if melissahs good friend winter was up or home she was home but she didnt hear melissa knocking then we walked back to tiffanys house there for a couple hours had to leave for like an hour and 30.... it sucked... because everyone was tired and i had only 4 hours of sleep sooo yeah it was a very long hour and 30 after the hour and time guess where we went? BAck to tiffanys heh heh but everyone pretty much crashed we i mean oreo and melissah were up for another 2 hours me adn tiffany we up intill about 10 i think or maybe it was 11 i dont know we had fun though *heh heh heh*well umm thats all i pretty much remeber well after everyone woke up we left we went to go get melissahs hair cut and tiffany was hungry so yeah BUt jinkens was being stupid but eh its old and i dont feel like explaining... so.. thats pretty much it.... and now i feel alone.... ..oh well.....=( i am done with this now.... KEEP IT CRUNK NIGGA!!!

Fonix!

Current Mood: lonely

10:41 am - Kris is going to update UNFREAKING believeABLE

Heh Well The Kris is updateing about his life. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!now that i got that out where to start well forth of july was fun i havent talked about it in anyother entrys or anything....ummm i broke up with kaitlin... but i think we are still frineds i dont know.. well for me breaking up with her alot of the people think i am the ASSHOLE!!! but see i am not or am i? well i dont know its pretty fucked up though people takeing her side just because she is a girl? because everyone thinks a girl has more feelings then a guy? If people think that its fucked up but eh i am not worrying about it anymore But on fucking message to the fucking pople that hate me.... FUCK ALL OF YOU STUPID SIMPLE MINDED FUCKS!!!! anyway now that i got that off the chest. what now. i have been doing a bit of gameing but not to much i guess theres been more shit going on in my life. Like. friends Un needed drama. fam shit. ect.well i cant really remeber that happed like a mounth ago. but i will start from somewhere.ok after the brake up. went to oreos house hung out there. for like a week hung out with mike oreo becky melissa tiffany. well it was fun.But tiffany is a new friend she is cool and i am with oreo on this one i do like how she thinks there needs to be more people like her in the world but sadly theres not.anyway back on topic. she is a really cool person so is her brother pretty much her whole family is cool.ok after hanging out over there for a bit. i come home. and i am not sure but i think its the day i get home or day after.Guess who calls? tiffany asking if she could crash at my place after a party she went to. keep in mind people i have only know this chick like 5 days or something like that heh heh heh.. anyway lmfao!NO you sick fucks nothing happend OR did something happen???? but anyway she comes over and yeah fun night/moring/afternoon. witch brings me to this week. went to county line on monday fun stuff ;) well all i can really say is i like a person. and she was at county line we had fun. *fucking ice* but anyway. i think i am bout done with updateing. I should update sooner or later befor summer is over.
KEEP IT CRUNK!!! YAYAH!!!!


Kris

Current Mood: loved

11:43 pm - Bored...

well i havent really updated in a while theres nothing really going on in my life.. its just been the same old shit... i maybe almost done with summer school if i pass the test on wedsenday but i dont know i may, i may not i want to pass because then i can sleep in and have fun.. and hang out with oreo and see kaitlin more often... i want to get drunk but there hasnt really been any chances for me or i have no money to put in for beer i and i feel bad drinking someone eles beer.. but anyway last friday i come home from school and oreo asks if i want to come over his house i say sure.. and him and mike come pick me up and we dont really play halo when we get to oreos house we mostly just bull shited around... after that we went to walmart to pick up some tampico thats good shit... than we get back to oreos house and i get online for a bit at his house me and kaitlin kinda got into a fight but shit happends we worked shit out and we are happy again.. and people may think when we get into fights we will break up but we dont because i guess we love eachother that much.. on saterday i got up at 10:13a.m and kaitlin came and picked me up from oreos house and we went to K-mart we saw amanda there.. kaitlin got a pair of shoes.. *like she needs them* heh heh anyway after we went to K-mart we go to her house we start to watch life aquitc its different i didnt get to see the whole movie but its a stoner movie the fish's and shit looke fucking cool they were made out of clay it was just pretty cool to me.. after the movie kaitlin got a headache and a upset stomic and she said she was sorry for being boring but she wasnt i think she was fakeing he stomic ache i think she just wanted me to mess around with her... and i watched some of the bush race it was ok i guess after that huck comes and asks us if we want to go on this little boat to test it out and we do kaitlin dosent really like it so we come back to shore and i step in the water it sucked my shoe and sock was soaked but oh well than we go back to her house and then kaitlin goes into the pool and i waited a bit befor i went in .. we were in for about an hour maybe a bit longer got out and i tryed to change into my clouthes but kaitlin kept on stoping me because she was washing a pair of my boxers and i didnt want to wait but i pretty much did after we got dressed we went to wagon wheel thats a good place to get pizza.. after we ate we went to walmart just for the hell of it kaitlin was looking at stuff i was just being me and annoying her ^_^ after that i was drained so i wasnt much fun oreo and mike were plaing halo but i didnt feel like it then went home about 1:30ish 2... sunday.. didnt really do anything cale came over at 7:00 in the moring just to say hi he was out all night hanging out with friends driking we where talking to him for a bit we where diping and he left because he was tired.. me and oreo go back inside to enjoy our dips mmmm peach skoal and than i say do you want to freez our dips so we can have them later oreo said sure so we do that than go back to sleep..oreo wakes me up about 12:30 because mike and becky are comeing over and then they stay for a bit and leave because mike is hungrey and so are we so we make freach toast sitcks they are good mmmmm ...after that we didnt really do to much just bull shited around on halo and than i left and i came home and played halo2 online i get party up with two people we get a six game winning streak we where doing fucking good! than oz and knuckles rob dallas come over we hang out with them for about 2 hours they leave i stay up and talk to kaitlin on the computer and watch dj play football onlin... than go to sleep and that brings me to today i did really nothing went to school came home played halo 2 didnt do so grate... and thats why i am on hear updating but i am just about done now...

Fonix

Current Mood: content

04:51 pm

How I ever lived and breathed before you loved me, I don’t recall
If I walked around at all, it was in bits and pieces
Of a jagged heart
You kissed me and every piece went back in place, every pain got erased
You held me up to the light

No one ever left me out in the rain
Cold words still remain unspoken
And I never got lost, spent years in the dark
You’re here, now my heart’s unbroken
When I see your smile fill my soul again
I’m unbroken

If I doubted the power of love, baby now I understand
I thank God for every day I wake up to the soft touch
Of your magic hands
In this world sometimes the only thing that’s real is the way you make me feel
Babe, the changes day and night
I swear it’s life

No one ever left me out in the rain
Cold words still remain unspoken
And I never got lost, spent years in the dark
You’re here, now my heart’s unbroken
When I see your smile fill my soul again
I’m unbroken

I still see the night, I fell into your eyes
And when we made love it felt like the first time

No one ever left me out in the rain
Cold words still remain unspoken
And I never got lost, spent years in the dark
You’re here, now my heart’s unbroken
When I see your smile fill my soul again
I’m unbroken

When I see your smile fill my soul again
I’m unbroken
I’m unbroken, oh yeah
I’m unbroken

No one ever left me out in the rain
Cold words still remain unspoken
And I never got lost, spent years in the dark
You’re here, now my heart’s unbroken
When I see your smile fill my soul again
I’m unbroken

i guess i have reasons for puting this song in here .... i guess i am just grateful for what i have and shit... well i havent really updated but i have had an passion to write soo give me time i may write more tonight well BYe...
stay Crunk
NIgga

Current Mood: grateful

09:59 pm - little moments

I know she's not perfect but she tries so hard for me
And I thank god that she isn't 'cause how boring would that be
It's the little imperfections it's the sudden change in plans
When she misreads the directions and we're lost but holdin' hands
Yeah I live for little moments like that

When she's layin' on my shoulder on the sofa in the dark
And about the time she falls asleep so does my right arm
And I want so bad to move it 'cause it's tinglin' and it's numb
But she looks so much like and angel that I don't wanna wake her up
Yeah I live for little moments
When she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that

i have listened to that song a little while ago i guess is a dumb enrty but oh well it means something to me but i guess thats all counts... and i guess i have had little moments like that and its ture but the person should know who its to ah this probiley wont make any sence but oh well i think she will get it...


kris....

10:33 pm - no lies, just love

well i havnt updated in a long time... i dont know ..... the name of this entry is the name of a good song heres a little part from it"So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep"

its a good song thats a part i dont know if you will get who ever looks at my journal but oh well. well lots of stuff has happend just so far 2005 just fucking sucks i want things to go back to normal when i can have trust and there honesty but i dont know me and kaitlin broke up last week on sunday but on monday she didnt know we where broke up when i said we are taking time apart she took it the wrong way but anyway i think everything is slowy getting back to normal becuase today we where with eachother and stuff and i felt really good because she was by my side and we where holding hands and stuff and after lunch she walked me back to class and we said stuff back and forth and we i got back to my class we kissed and than kissed again that we did a nice long one i felt really good after that like we were back together but who knows she hasnt told me if we are or we are not but all i can say as i am hopeing for the best.. well after school came home hung out with cale be hit the shit out of this white thing it was in pice's in like 5min it was fun releaved some stress after that came inside i gave cale a dip and kev and cale talked then... cale came out by the computer so he could hear a song i got he thought it was cool after that went back outside had a cig or dip one of them than cale went home bout 30min to an hour cale comes back over because angie broke up with him ... but oh well she dont know what she lost he is a grate guy one of my good friends anyway after he came over kev and cale wrestled that was funny they went at it for about 30min i got some of it on cales phone funny shit anyway then after that had a dip and me kev and cale talked for about an hour just about shit then cale left and got on the computer and talk to oreo and he sent me like 5 songs of bright eyes good band and i guess i can say what i did yesterday even tho its off the topic i went over oreos house and helped him clean we brought like 6 bags of shit out to the dumpster and destoryed a PS2 it was fun but that was befor the cleaning ... thats reall just about it and i have been waiting for kaitlin to get on so we could talk but the wait is over she got on like 3min ago so i getting off and just remeber "if its white its alright,if its black send it back

kris

Current Mood: relaxed

12:09 pm - why?

The phone slips from a loose grip
Words were missed then, some apology
I didn’t want to tell you this
No, it’s just some guy she's been hanging out with
I don’t know, the past couple weeks I guess
Well, thank you and hang up the phone
Let the funeral start
Hear the casket close
Let’s pin split-black ribbon to your overcoat
Well, laughter pours from under doors
In this house, I don’t understand that sound no more
It seems artificial, like a T.V. set

Well, haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
This weight it must be satisfied
You offer only one reply
You know not what you do
But you tear and tear your hair from roots
From that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die
Well ha ha ha

I remember everything
The words we spoke on freezing South Street
And all those mornings watching you get ready for school
You combed your hair inside that mirror
The one you painted blue and glued with jewelry tears
Something about those bright colors
would always make you feel better
But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren’t meant for anyone
It’s just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
But there was once you

You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you’d take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?

Haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
The plans were never finalized
But left to hang like yarn and twine
Dangling before my eyes
As you tear and tear your hair from roots
From that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die

And I sing and sing of awful things
The pleasure that my sadness brings
As my fingers press onto the strings
In yet another clumsy chord
Haligh, haligh, an awful lie
This weight will now be satisfied
I'm gonna give you only one reply
I know not who I am

But I talk in the mirror
To the stranger that appears
Our conversations are circles
Always one sided
Nothing is clear

Except we keep coming back
To this meaning that I lack
He says the choices were given
Now you must live them
Or just not live
But do you want that?

Current Mood: uncomfortable